The Save File

Hello again! This post is quite a personal one. I have to admit I am a little apprehensive about posting it but it's time to do so.I get very attached to people. I also get very nostalgic. My brain likes to play a wonderful game with me called 'Don't sleep, worry about all these things instead!'.

I get very sad when I think about people who are no longer actively in my life and I find myself wondering. Do I miss them, the person they used to be or the good times we had?

This short story is not a story at all. It's something real that happened to me one day when I couldn't sleep and all I wanted to do was play an old game.

Hope you enjoy

Sophie

11/12/2013 – 23:26

It’s almost been five years to the day since you saved that game. I couldn’t sleep and finding that file only made things worse. My head was too full of thoughts, of worries and regrets. I just wanted a fresh start if not in life then on a game. It’s funny how much we’ve changed. We named our towns on the places of other games we were obsessed with. It’s funny really. Seeing that and how much time has passed made my heart sink. It’s sinking now just writing this. We were so close. Look at us now. We said we would always be there but life separated us. We tried to reconnect through the virtual world at least but we didn’t. We’ve both grown up so much and yet when I talk to you it’s like no time has passed. I’m scared to call you, scared of annoying you. You’ve got new friends now we both have and I don’t know what I find more terrifying. That we’re disconnected, that I’ve been replaced or that I wasn’t as good as you deserved. I’ll keep this save file. I’ll keep everything I can of back then. I can’t let go. I’m too scared of losing you.