The fear of the craft
I love creative things. I love painting and sewing and knitting and writing and all those wonderful things. When was the last time I did any of those things?
Honestly. I can't remember.
My reason for not doing those things is often one or a combination of a few reasons. In reality they are just excuses to an extent.
Let's look at the big one though - fear of the result/messing up.
If you don't practice you never improve - simple. However, that hasn't stopped me from not practicing because I don't like how something has turned out. I'll fawn over other artists and writers and go 'wow - I'd love to be as talented as you one day' fully aware that they have worked blooming hard to get there. So off I go to scribble something down aaaaannnddd.... instantly hate it. Now this isn't a new concept as lots of people say this. The dividing factor is the next step though.
Create or hate.
Create and you can improve to a point where you will eventually feel proud of something. Or you could hate it and cringe at it and never improve.
How many times on this blog have I said that something is going to change and lets be honest it's all empty promises BUT...
... and this is a big but ...
If you don't try to change you never will.
So once again I'm going to try to change but this time I'm doing it differently and I'm going to combine a few of my failures into one. A few months ago I mentioned that I was starting a bullet journal and in truth I loved setting it up and the first few days of using it. I kept up with it and then it kind of just stopped being used (like most diaries I have).
Here's the thing about bullet journals. They're SUPPOSED to be EASY. The format I'm using isn't quite right but I can't decide how and because it sort of works I just never changed it. Again, it's easy to go online and see how beautiful everyone's is but they've done it that way for themselves because that's what they want. I wanted mine to be pretty but could never decide how and why etc. I fear what alot of people fear - 'messing it up'.
Does it matter if I mess up MY journal with MY notes in it that only I will read? Absolutely not.
So today I'm setting up my bullet journal for June (even though we are 1/3 through). I'm going to nick an idea from the internet of a habit tracker and here's where the combo comes guys. On my habit tracker I'm going to put in some goals 'write more, draw more, read more' etc. Unlike other times I'm not going to get mad if I don't do it every day because if I've gone from doing it once in a blue moon why should I get mad at myself for not keeping to a newly unrealistic goal.
Instead I'm going to have some aims i.e. write something once a week. It's not often but it's more often than now.
Do any of you guys keep bullet journals? If so what pages do you like to put in yours? Do you feel pressured for it to look great and be functional?
I look forward to hearing from you guys,
Sophie x
Honestly. I can't remember.
My reason for not doing those things is often one or a combination of a few reasons. In reality they are just excuses to an extent.
Let's look at the big one though - fear of the result/messing up.
If you don't practice you never improve - simple. However, that hasn't stopped me from not practicing because I don't like how something has turned out. I'll fawn over other artists and writers and go 'wow - I'd love to be as talented as you one day' fully aware that they have worked blooming hard to get there. So off I go to scribble something down aaaaannnddd.... instantly hate it. Now this isn't a new concept as lots of people say this. The dividing factor is the next step though.
Create or hate.
Create and you can improve to a point where you will eventually feel proud of something. Or you could hate it and cringe at it and never improve.
How many times on this blog have I said that something is going to change and lets be honest it's all empty promises BUT...
... and this is a big but ...
If you don't try to change you never will.
So once again I'm going to try to change but this time I'm doing it differently and I'm going to combine a few of my failures into one. A few months ago I mentioned that I was starting a bullet journal and in truth I loved setting it up and the first few days of using it. I kept up with it and then it kind of just stopped being used (like most diaries I have).
Here's the thing about bullet journals. They're SUPPOSED to be EASY. The format I'm using isn't quite right but I can't decide how and because it sort of works I just never changed it. Again, it's easy to go online and see how beautiful everyone's is but they've done it that way for themselves because that's what they want. I wanted mine to be pretty but could never decide how and why etc. I fear what alot of people fear - 'messing it up'.
Does it matter if I mess up MY journal with MY notes in it that only I will read? Absolutely not.
So today I'm setting up my bullet journal for June (even though we are 1/3 through). I'm going to nick an idea from the internet of a habit tracker and here's where the combo comes guys. On my habit tracker I'm going to put in some goals 'write more, draw more, read more' etc. Unlike other times I'm not going to get mad if I don't do it every day because if I've gone from doing it once in a blue moon why should I get mad at myself for not keeping to a newly unrealistic goal.
Instead I'm going to have some aims i.e. write something once a week. It's not often but it's more often than now.
Do any of you guys keep bullet journals? If so what pages do you like to put in yours? Do you feel pressured for it to look great and be functional?
I look forward to hearing from you guys,
Sophie x
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